Waking Up EP

by Charles Edison

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1.
Broke In Two 04:25
Things had been going well for like, a couple of years And you still made me feel light headed like a couple of beers No fuss, no tears, I mean it was so clear And now Ii'm in a mess, saying this stuff that you won't hear. But I'm just saying what's left, maybe I'm wasting my breath, Nevertheless, let's get this off of my chest I never thought that you would ever desert me And maybe that's the reason why you thought this ain't working- Out, how now could I ever survive? You cut me off and left me dying for a place in your life That ain't right, now I'm second guessing all that I do Don't wanna talk to no one else cos' none of them could be you I guess it's true though, in hindsight - we couldn't be right Towards the end, the signs were there - I never saw you most nights I can't swallow this, I'm gonna choke You said you're feeling happy now, I still ain't got the joke I just hope you remember. [Hook] Remember all of the times I said I loved you, Cos' you felt stronger before you were broke in two And now something ain't right, cos' you ain't with me at night and it's like - I gave you my world, I designed our lives ahead of you, Cos' you felt stronger before we were broke in two After debris settles and the dust gets swept off, Maybe we can pick it up from where we left off Back when we spoke cos' I can't just get lost There's movies playing in my head, our personal best of Partly I believe you'll realise you messed up When that happens, I wish I could tell you to get fucked But that'll be hard cos' I ain't got hate for you Part of me partially thinks I could've been made for you I thought I had it planned, I thought I had it all lined up Cos' everybody's got their gem, I thought I had mine cut You said "time's up, it's too late to change me" I thought this was for real, but how you felt was fougaisie And lately, I think maybe it's cos' I took you for granted, I took advantage, cos' of the way we started Cos' most guys would've run for cover when you said 'the L word,' I said it back cos' I loved ya, I still remember. [Hook] Remember all of the times I said I loved you, Cos' you felt stronger before you were broke in two And now something ain't right, cos' you ain't with me at night and it's like - I gave you my world, I designed our lives ahead of you, Cos' you felt stronger before we were broke in two Ii used to be the nice guy, the right guy, The firefly in your night sky, now my light's died I'm like - why? You couldn't answer so I'll never know, ever But i have to let it burn to Usher in a new era So I've been deleting all your pictures off my Facebook Ones of you, ones of us and ones of me that you took This dude was shook but fuck that, I'm moving on Now I'm using this song as the method to prove you wrong It's been months since you left, I'm trying to guess what you're up to That letter that I sent and several texts couldn't touch you I'm feeling fine now, when I see you will be my next test All these weak groups and we were one of the best Now this stone has lost its moss, so I have to let it be I'll whisper words of wisdom then I guess I'll let it be So I can put this shit to bed like a slut that I'll probably fuck Whatever, I'm better off, it's your loss - best of luck [Hook] Remember all of the times I said I loved you, Cos' you felt stronger before you were broke in two And now something ain't right, cos' you ain't with me at night and it's like - I gave you my world, I designed our lives ahead of you, Cos' you felt stronger before we were broke in two And now I don't know what to do, cos' we're broke in two
2.
Modulate 03:27
3.
Nights 02:49
3AM, and I ain't even started this, Somebody tell me where this evening's after party is I need somewhere new to use, where I can be ejected from Some new people with new toes for stepping on But for now, I'm doing shots until the bar is dry The game is on, I top the leader board because I started high I'm going in, I'm going in until I pass out I'm down to fuck up my life, I might as well start now. So where's that girl from work who's single cos' she's been hurt, I'm trying to use her self esteem to see what's underneath her shirt. She told me "do what people our age are doing" So I'm acting like the next man, now everybody screwing And they say it don't suit me - please, just shoot me, For wanting something easy, something raw, something sushi I'm making plans I never plan on seeing through, Ain't that me through and through? Weren't that me when it was me and you? Nasty manipulator. Chronic pisstaker. Damaging embarrassment who vomits on his fifth jaeger I lost my mind in a night club bathroom Haven't learned a lesson since I left my last classroom Causing scenes, acting up in all directions Missing my marks like rhetorical questions It's hard to know if anybody really gives a damn When all they've got to offer me is boxes of citalopram But I ain't take em because they fuck up my high And I ain't talking cos you'll fuck up my high So let's go and get lost in a house share Phone it in, call it on, tell em that we're downstairs If the phones off, then pass me another bottle Don't ask me when I'll be stopping, it's hard to be this dishonest I'm just tryna go strong, go for broke till I stop Like the time I was so gone, I did coke with my boss Distorted debauchery minus the extravagance Extorting me for more, I'm trying not to but she's adamant Girls who only stay until the mirrors wiped clean I've been told it's too far and i'm scared that it might be. It's likely. It's frightening. Na, they just saying that to spite me I feel like being myself might break me Trust me - it's much easier when you hate me
4.
Too Far 01:52
5.
Waking Up 04:03
Our relationship is NA - not applicable Cos we were fucked way before this ever got physical That's not literal, it's just a play on words If you don't understand that, you can vanish at the interval Moments of my life, when I was getting low or feeling high Regretting those is set in stone and now I can't forget the lines Reading between them, on a study of a new existence I'm forced to face this bed I've made and lay awake resisting It went from sex, lies, videotape To attempted suicides and using just to escape Now I'm sick of being miserable, I've given all to live as nothing Through guilty memories that render me as just disgusting My promises peter out before they pop off I swear to god I'm lying to myself that I am not lost But it's plain to see - I'm so jacked Locked in battle, fighting back against these panic attacks [Hook] Waking up is harder than it seems Wandering through these empty rooms of dusty books and quiet dreams Pictures on the mantle, speak your name Softly like forgotten tunes, just outside the sound of pain . . . . And now I'm a liability. Cos' I'm always trying to find a way of copping but this murder scene is killing me So get the chalk ready, I can't keep my thoughts steady The voices in my head ain't saying nothing but they talk plenty I can't do this anymore - I'm fucked Consumed by a monsoon of pure disgust Between the raw uncut and the whiskey It's stripped me, of everything I was - people round me say they miss me So, I do another one, another one, another until this bright mind is drained of any colour Just keep racking lines, never mind racking nerves Disassociated paranoia - it's getting worse There's nothing left, except guilt and shame And feeling like reality is never gonna feel the same I'm falling down and that's the bottom line Waking up is hard with no alarm, I'll never know if I can stop in time [Hook] Waking up is harder than it seems Wandering through these empty rooms of dusty books and quiet dreams Pictures on the mantle, speak your name Softly like forgotten tunes, just outside the sound of pain [Bridge] Change will come to those who have no fear But I'm not now or ever were the type who kept a rule book near What I said was never what I meant Now you see my world in flames, my shadow songs, my deep regret After another relapse, I seem damned to this existence Believing that I'm walking the path of least resistance Persistence only made my thinking sink deeper Into the abyss, an overdose and a seizure [Hook] Waking up is harder than it seems Wandering through these empty rooms of dusty books and quiet dreams Pictures on the mantle, speak your name Softly like forgotten tunes, just outside the sound of pain
6.
Here 02:39
I'm thinking of suing the Swiss government lately, Cos turning on the LHC is how I make beats I made peace with the me from my past, now I'm back I'm a beast - I can sleep when I pass Until that moment I'm an omen, I'm a horror story I've got today, somebody worry bout tomorrow for me I'm done with projecting all my wishes Right now is the only time that I can make a difference No more excuses. No more feeling useless, over thinking every single movement Cos you'd know that I'm worth respect If you'd heard all the work on my last cassette Now it's on to the next - yes, no rest No stress, feeling blessed to be taking breaths I took steps to get some help Now it's me being me - never somebody else [Hook] It took a minute just to take my time Another minute for some peace of mind So I can get back on these feet of mine Right here is where I've got to stay It took a minute just to learn to breathe Another minute tryna earn some peace So I can get what I deserve at least Right here is where I've got to stay I say the stuff they never will I stay forever ill, blessed with heavy skill, while the level they're on is feather still Free speech and I'm going demo crazy I started cleaning up and now I'm busy renovating Elevate - higher planes like I borrowed a jet Was sick of being sick to death and hedging all of my bets What you expect? I was dead last year Now I'm starting every January as if it's my last year Full steam, put in all that I got Never had nothing to piss in so this thing is my pot I used to agonise - no ones gonna listen, this'll never sell But I was only missing recognition from myself Now I make what I want, I don't care if they like it I get out what I put in when I write it And that's a lot, no half measures Every day is day one - the start of forever [Hook] It took a minute just to take my time Another minute for some peace of mind So I can get back on these feet of mine Right here is where I've got to stay It took a minute just to learn to breath Another minute tryna earn some peace So I can get what I deserve at least Right here is where I've got to stay I can't make the same mistakes again I can't go back and change I wont make the same mistakes again As long as I stay right here

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released May 8, 2017

All tracks written and produced by Charles Edison
Recorded at Brixton Hill Studios by Alessio Costa
Mixed and mastered by Chemo at KMJ45 Studios
Artwork photography by Gabriel Puyana
Artwork design by Ben Black

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Charles Edison London, UK

Charles is a producer & rapper from South London. His work pairs intricately layered, immersive beats with a raw & honest vocal style that has drawn comparisons with other British Urban music acts such as Beardyman, Akala, Mike Skinner, and Loyle Carner. His instrumental work draws on influences from J-Dilla, Tom Misch, Jon Phonics, and No ID to create rich and emotive soundscapes. ... more

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